brand new life.

I Love You, Boyf.

2011-12-05T15:57:00.002+08:00

Hadn't been blog on this blog for damn long. Is already 5/12/2011 and my baby's birthday is coming. O.O And I FAILED to give him a surprise. Sigh. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm so lucky to have him. :3 Seriously, I know he loves me a lot and I love him a lot too. Sometimes, I seriously feel that I don't deserved to be with him. I suck as you know. I really suck so much till I don't know what to do. Failure huh? BUT he's still here to back me up when I'm down or even worst when my mood were being a bitch and yet he's still here with me. :) *tears* I love you so much, dear. And forever will be ! Mwahhhhh :D

Random

2011-10-24T16:33:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhh ! I'm now thinking what should get or do for his birthday ! Although is one month away but still !!! I don't know what should I do ? ! D: Headache. Anway school holiday for one week and went to dentist app. She told me that next month my braces can take out already D: I feel sad. Sigh oh well I'll have a perfect straight teeth ! EIIIIII :D

Truth.

2011-10-23T08:35:00.001+08:00

I actually love being in this blog but then I know he won't like it so I'm gonna abandon this blog for him. Anyway I made a new one and moving there. Mehehehe.

YewHong.

2011-08-03T19:11:00.002+08:00

I made a mini notebook for him :) This is the first time I made something for him. After did the thing I felt so satisfied and happy with it. :D Non-stop smiling. Stayed back at school with him in the library. So called studying together. I kept on stared at him. I found that he's actually really very cute. The way he doing his math homework with those *serious faces* I'm in love with. Ahaha. I can't stop staring at him. Like seriously. Never felt this way before as in we got to I'm having right now. I gave him a peck on his cheeks today. Ahaha. At least he gave a peck on my lips. ^.^ So I shall remember today that we first hugged and kissed. I think I love you dear. My feelings is growing stronger and stronger. Please do not break my heart. This is what I hope for.

28 JULY 2011.

2011-07-28T17:19:00.001+08:00

Lim Yew Hong.

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Sucks.

2011-07-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why this stupid things matter to me. Am I jealous? Please Chong SuChi you know that he's nothing to you and you do not like him. Yes, you might heard that from his friend that he kinda likes you but doesn't mean that the truth right? Did he even confess to you? No right? So forget it and do not get affected by it. Seriously I'm really disappointed when he asked me am I Jojo? I was like wtf? See this proven that he sucks and he texted a lot of girls. I'm actually glad that now I know it before anything else happen between me and him. Thank God. I wouldn't want those days to happen to me again. I shall just ignored it and pretend like nothing happen and go on with my own single life.

H A P P Y P I L L S

2011-05-05T13:19:00.000+08:00

Stay happy and keep smiling.

kay ell

2011-04-22T01:53:00.001+08:00

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RACHEAL CHONG SU CHI

2011-02-22T01:40:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas.

2010-12-25T14:43:00.005+08:00

I love Christmas but the mood isn't there.

How I wish I could be as happy him.

If I do, I gonna bake cookies for my love ones.

Decorate some Christmas tree:D

All I want for Christmas is going to somewhere in Europe countries and spend my Christmas with my love one. Exchange gifts and have our countdown together. Kiss under the snow :D

A perfect romantic Christmas that's all I want and wish for:) Guess I have to wait for my Mr.Right to appear.

Song Joong Ki.

2010-12-09T15:58:00.001+08:00

Introduce you my new baby love!

SONG JOONG KI~

GOODBYE. YOU SUCK.

2010-12-09T15:37:00.002+08:00

So yeahhh SPM was over yesterday and today 9th of December 2010 , officially the end of my high school life. So I'm going to the adults life. I'm not really looking forward to it. As i know human takes things for granted. So far i know that I don't think I'll miss my high school life. My high school life sucks. What are friends? Do they last forever? The answer is No. They take you for granted. They always think that they are the best and they started to group together and bitching one and another. So what if they get to hangout together when deep inside them doesn't like each other. I really don't understand why nowadays human is damn hypocrites. Fake around as if they think their good in acting. Gosh. If you don't like just buzz off and get away. No one will stop you. Friends used to be important to me. To me their my everything. I don't mind they took me for granted and so on but they just over board doing it which I hate it and I starting to give up the friendship we built. So when I started to back off, things had changed. All of them starting to group together and ditched me. I still wondering why they can be like that? Talking about that. I still remember that whatever, whenever and ect happened to them, I always be there for them and helped them. They took me for granted and now they ditched me just like that. Yesterday I kept on wondering izit my fault. Is it because of me, myself who have attitude problem till everyone of them ditched me? Am I not good enough? Is like everyone is against me. Friends all get together and hanging out with each other. lol. i missed those days when I can hangout together and make fun with each other. I wanna go out but I don't think people welcome me. I guess I'll be stuck at home during this holiday. I just hope I can make new friends and forget whatever happened to me during my high school life. YOU SUCK!
Friends are not forever and meant to be broken.

2010-10-31T00:41:00.001+08:00

What if~

2010-10-31T00:23:00.001+08:00

I think I love you.

2010-10-05T14:24:00.003+08:00

Untitle.

2010-09-18T01:06:00.002+08:00

Hello bloggie:)
Holiday is going to be over soon and I'm not happy about it. I hate going to school. I hate fakers. Seeing them make me feel sick. Goshh~ Anyway drama of the month The Playful Kiss:)
Parents going Macao for a week and I'll be free:D Ngek ngek but I'll miss them especially my dearest daddy<3

Single's Day.

2010-09-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

Without love~ Days are
Sad Day, Moan Day, Tears Day, Waste Day, Thirst Day, Fright Day, Shatter Day.
So I shall search for my love and be in love everyday.

OMG THIS SO TRUE ABOUT PISCES!

2010-08-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

1. I admit it--I tend to believe everything I hear.

2. I love animals and I never miss the opportunity to rescue a stray.

3. I have to avoid phone calls with telemarketers since I seem to be easily talked into just about anything.

4. I have a strong and active imagination. When I was a child I would get lost in my own little world of imaginary play friends.

5. I always will opt to go with the flow rather than trying to shake things up.

6. In my love relationships, I am very affectionate.

7. I have excellent intuition and I am always able to pick up on the hidden feelings of others.

8. I am able to adapt to just about any situation easily. For example, if I were to lose my job I would be able to quickly find a new one and adjust.

9. I sometimes get myself into trouble when I try to help others. I get involved in situations that I should not be involved in.

10. I am very sensitive and my feelings get hurt easily.

11. If I get into an argument with somebody, I am usually the first person to back down.

12. I sometimes get carried away with my story telling and I end up making up tales that are outright lies.

13. I am very creative and artistic, and I have found work that incorporates these skills.

14. I am told that I can be too trusting of strangers.

15. When it comes to office politics, I tend to be oblivious to them.

16. I know that I lack self-confidence.

17. There are times when I miss seeing conflict and chaos that is going on around me. I seem to have an ability to just block it out, whereas others get caught up in it.

18. My personal goals in life are not very clear to me.

19. I always put the needs of others before my own.

20. I easily lose myself in books and movies to the point that I completely forget about the outside world.

Pisces (born February 20-March 20) is the 12th sign of the Zodiac. Pisces tend to be one of the sweetest, but most naive of the Sun Signs. They are affectionate people and avoid conflict at all costs. They often lack high self-esteem and a vision for their own feature. They tend to be overly reliant on others to give them a purpose in life. Pisces have to be careful; their need for escapism can lead to anything from excessive daydreaming to substance abuse.

PISCES.

2010-08-29T12:47:00.001+08:00

Traits of an Pisces:

Shy
Romantic
Trustworthy
Aloof
Dreamy
Creative
Understanding
Unrealistic
Impractical

Likes.

Romance
Nature
Ambient music
Poetry
Mystical settings
Being loved / wanted
Freedom
Privacy

Dislikes.

Noise
Crowds
Dirt & ugliness
Garish objects
Being reminded
Tight spaces
Authority
Revealing private life

2010-08-28T02:10:00.001+08:00

Unwanted.

2PM-Thank You.

2010-08-17T13:53:00.003+08:00

This song is a love.:D Anyway haven't been online for quite some time and my blog is like half dead. So I'm gonna update it a little. Now at Starbucks chilling.Due to the modem problem so I'm force to come out here and online. Anyway my hair sucks. People called me auntie some more. Goshhh sakit hati:( I've gain weight! I looked so awful right not. Can i like hide myself? T__T Trial's starting tomorrow and I'm so dead right now. Didn't even finish revising and the worst part is I don't even remember what I'd studied before. PLEASE KILL ME ! OhOh~before I forget Super Show 3 is so awesome=3 i really hope to be there and shout and support them:) DongHae is love. He's damn smoking hot. Goshhhh~~~ I'm fainting.Ahahaha.EunHaeMin.

P.S:Trial's starting tomorrow and wish me luck;)SJ Hwaiting!

GoodBye, TragyToki.

2010-07-25T01:51:00.004+08:00

DONGHAE

EUNHYUK

SUNGMIN

I LOVE EUNHAEMIN.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.

Beast Updates.

2010-07-21T12:20:00.003+08:00

Beast:D

They are so cute with

their pj's.

Wondering what's his doing?
His ass is on fire??

Yoseob the dorky one")

Awww the leader being
a big brother to Yoseob:)

Beast will be joining this Maid's Idol. This is the preview of the show. Hahaha. Aren't them cute? Loving JunHyung the most! I just can't wait for this to be out:)

No Other♥

2010-07-21T11:37:00.002+08:00

I just can't wait to find my other half. Like seriously. I know I sounds so desperate but what to do? Pieces loves to day dream and imagining stuff like romance:D I'll sing him No Other. Although my voice kinda urmm not nice but I just hope I can impress him with the lovely song and the lyrics which really meaningful and sweet. I'll let him know that he's the one I'm looking for and no others. I believe that he's the good person that I know and it's something like a gift from God. How lucky that I can protect him from harm. Hug him to let him know that he's not forgotten and a kiss to tell him that i care and love him so much. A happy girl like me will show him my happiest smile to let him know that he brings me joy and happiness in my life. I'll warm his both hands when it get cold. Even those guys that appear in TV are sparkling , he'll be always in my mind. Hearing him telling me that how much he loves me, I'll have everything in this world. Just you and I we'll make it thru.

P.S: All I need is to find the right

person for me to love.This post is just

a imagining fairy tale that I wish to do

when I'm in a relationship:)

Good Good Mood.♥

2010-07-17T00:53:00.006+08:00

It has been a few days I didn't online.Woohooo:D I'm great. Mood feeling good now. SS3 will be held on 26th of March 2011. Which is I will and can make it! Heh heh. I seriously can't wait to see Suju. This is super GREAT.(n.n) Tuition is so sickening and I have to stand it till the SPM is over. Sighhh better don't talk about it.Don't want it to ruin my good good mood. Oh yeah, found this video by Jaebom. I actually find this song annoying but after I watched this~I've changed my mind. This is great:D Thumbs up!

DONGHAE IS SO CUTE!!!

P.S:iloveleedonghae~

Hello♥

2010-07-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

Yeahhhh, finally finish updating my bloggie background! It took me around 2 hours? Woahhh, eyes also swollen already. Lol. I wanna update my bloggie more often! I feel bad again that i abandoned it again :( I LOVE LOVE LOVE DongHae~I sound so hyper.Heh heh. My uncle came and visit my family and I and he brought his friend along, Remi. The name sounds like girl right? He's a man. Anyway uncle bought 3 soft toys which is a blue bear, a lion?, and a twitter bug! the name that caught my attention. Lol. A toy car before I forgot and lastly a box of candies:D Took some pictures but lazy wanna upload>.< I suck man! I'm supposed to study but went and online. Sighhh. This is so hard for me. T_______T oh well i have to offline now.

P.S:lovingnoother,SJ.

Kpop on Trending!

2010-06-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

Oh my god! I just frigging abandoned my blog! Oh gosh, what I did is because I keep on updating my tweets on twitter. Plus suju's members did update their twitter quite often. This is why! Heh! U-Kiss is in Msia!! OHH EMM GEE~ their in 988 radio station just now. The way that Alexander speaks Cantonese is freaking cute! His voice like woah! Kibum is cute too saying in BM language. Arghhhh I feel so bad when their in Msia and I can't attend their showcase! Gosh,I suck. If I live in KL I surely will stalk them. LOL. Beast is coming to Msia next week. Seriously, I feel like killing myself! Why am I 17 this year? If I'm 18 I surely will drive all the way to kl and support them! Oh well, I feel better because luckily Suju's Super Show 3 will be maybe around and of this year or next year. This is great right:D I'M SO HAPPY WHEN I GET TO MEET THEM AGAIN! Lastly, I did not study. I SUCK!

Life.

2010-06-09T14:43:00.002+08:00

This song used to be one of my favourite song Wedding dress by taeyang. This song seriously very sad when you know the lyrics. Anyway, it has been quite sometime I did not upload any post. This is because I'm having a very random and boring life. There's nothing for me to talk about and remember it. Meaningless life. Having holidays now and I'm supposed to be studying undang and some chemistry? It failed too lazy. I just wanna be a couch potatoes:D I just finished my Super Junior Full House. Super envy those girls that get to spent freaking 3 months in Suju's dorm! Ohh EM GEE. 3 MONTHS! Haih, how I wish I could be them. Just let me stay for 2 days and 1 night I already very satisfy and can rest in peace. Life is so unfair. Why some people can be so lucky? I don't get what I wanted. All along it did happened. Usually I don't get what I want. This happened all the time. FML.

I'm feeling not right.

2010-06-05T03:04:00.002+08:00

I'm sick of my feelings now. It's so unwanted. Why bad people always get the fame? I just don't get it.Gosh. Bad-mouthing people? What so great about it? Do we have to gossip a lot to get more friends? I don't think that's the good way but some humans did. Is already 3 in the morning and I'm not asleep. I just can't make my mind stop thinking. I always thought you're different but it seems that you're just the same like others. I hate going to school. Seriously, I cant deal with those hypocrites any longer. I don't even wanna see them. It hurt my eyes. Hearing those voices was torturing. I'm glad that now having 2 weeks break if not I'm gonna hang myself to death.How I wish I can go out from this school and meet someone new:)
Well, what I can do is to be patient and face the fact that I've to deal with it. Sigh.

P.S:Happy birthday to my dearest hubby.ily:)

说了再见.

2010-05-23T17:17:00.001+08:00

天亮了　
雨下了　
你走了清楚了　
我愛的　
遺失了落葉飄在湖面上睡著了
想要放　
放不掉　
淚在飄你看看　
你看看　
看不到我假裝過去不重要　
卻發現自己辦不到
說了再見　
才發現再也見不到我不能就這樣失去你的微笑
口紅待在桌腳　
而你我找不到若角色對調你說好不好
說了再見　
才發現再也見不到能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉說好陪我到老　
又狠往哪裡走再次擁抱一分一秒都好

天亮了　
雨下了　
你走了清楚了　
我愛的　
遺失了落葉飄在湖面上睡著了
想要放　
放不掉　
淚在飄你看看　
你看看　
看不到我假裝過去不重要　
卻發現自己辦不到
說了再見　
才發現再也見不到我不能就這樣失去你的微笑
口紅待在桌腳　
而你我找不到若角色對調你說好不好

你的笑　
你的好　
腦海裡　
一直在繞我的手　
忘不了　
你手的溫度心碎了一地　
撿不回從前的心跳　
傷心過去我無力逃跑　
說再見　
才發現再也見不到能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　
又狠往哪裡走再次擁抱一分一秒都好.

P.S:Imissyou.

SUJU.

2010-05-22T01:53:00.005+08:00

Seriously Suju in this album really HOT!!! AHHHH Gonna scream my lungs out.

HAHAHA. I swear that LeeTeuk has a really hot hot hot body:3

I'm so gonna faint soon xD

Random Post.

2010-05-10T17:46:00.002+08:00

It has been quite sometime I didn't update any post. Due to the modem and some desktop problem.Sickening. My computer not yet fix and now just using my lappie to update only. I miss my itouch like mad. Sigh cant charge battery because this lappie cant download itunes.ARGHHHH.Pissed me off like what the hell!! Anyway life has been quite tough for me. High school life sucks? Hell yeah! Being a teenager is no fun for me perhaps for other will be like two thumbs up? but for me negative ratings. Exam is like on next week, and I have not even complete any of the subjects. FML. That's so great! I mean "great". urghhh~ additional math! KILL ME! Recently, I realised that mostly people around you are all actually hypocrite! Seriously!! I really mean it! They used you for their own benefits. Sometime, even your very own bestfriend will betray you and worst of all gossip about you! Just like their random topic. I really don't understand to some people, they superbly hate you , back stabbed you like what the fuck or even gossip about you like ain't no other people will do, yet they in front of you will be like ohhhh aren't you gorgeous? oh maybe "Do you know there was this guy... blahhh and blahhh. I just dont get this type of people. If you really hate me so much please buzz off and don't act like as if you like to talk to me. Just fuck off out of my life and STOP being hypocrite!! You're like so damn annoying. Don't ever talk if you hate me like OMG. Goshh this kind of people seriously weird. How could they even survived being two-faces human. Don't they think is suffering talk to the person they hate the most and act like they are so bff?? I'm tired of it. Dramas everywhere.
If you don't like me just stop talking to me and don act like you're close to me oh what so ever. Bad-mouthing so much?! Talk as much as you like. Guess you're just jealous if not why the hell you wanna cared so much about me? Whatever I did, whenever I went or wear, you still judge about me like so much? Woahhh are you a stalker? Keep on observed about whatever I did? Ahahaha. Too free I guess? Oh well, Get The Hell Out Of Me! AND STOP BAD-MOUTHING ABOUT OTHERS! Fuck off.

Where Are Your Manners Gone?

2010-04-18T20:11:00.007+08:00

Some fucking asshole commented about my pictures with my friends.This fella she is just 10! for goodness sake! A 10 year old girl. I wonder where is her manners now? Down in drain i guess? She called me a monkey and said me fucking beach? LOL. Did she means bitch? She even spelt it wrongly. She said when she sees me she feel like wanna throw up? Oh hello do you think you have seen me before? You don't even meet me before how did you know you will throw up? Wow you got some psychic powers? oh my god! Oh so great for you~my ass. Such a shame for you. Wanted to scold me and give a bad comment about me? Please, you don't even know me. I've to advice you to look in the mirror before you even judge other people. I don't give a damn about you, kiddo! like I even care what you said about me.Kid please go and study and don't waste your parents effort. You know you're just 10. Your parent put high hope on you and treated you like a princess but for me? please go and fuck yourself. I'm actually is a person who love children. I care and cherish them. I don't even scold them but this kiddo here really getting on my nerves for goodness sake.You people better find out who she is.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZEYEN :D

2010-04-14T10:20:00.002+08:00

the princess of the day!!!

May I present you Ms

CHOONG SZE YEN.

happy birthday yen:)

May you have the sweetest yet

happy birthday this year.

dear szeyen,

It's so good to know someone special, who shares
My secrets, my laughter, my dreams and my cares
Someone through good times and bad, when there's tears
It's so good to know you, my friend through the years

Today is the special for you to have a wonderful birthday.

Loves,

Suchi

Seems That My Life Now Is Different.

2010-04-12T18:48:00.005+08:00

I decided to blog more about Kpop. Seems I'm happy when I thinking or talking about them. Although it seems that I a little bit out of control urm crazy? Oh well, I'll just mention it in my blog and real life I'll be realistic and and not living in denial. Watching Music Bank right now:) I wondering who is M4.

Should I watch Shinee's Hello Baby?

Their song title Melody For You was a really nice song.I just wondering how old is that guy? He seems a little younger compared to his the other members. Not to forget he's good looking too. I wonder why is he in this group.Can anyone tell me about it? I really wanna know about it.Epik High-Run anyone have this song?

OMG, I looked freaking Weird!

2010-04-10T16:55:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p66NxIOhbBE

I just don't know why this freaking blogger can't upload my video. Anyway, here's the link. I looked freaking ohmygod do not dare to say a word. I suck in that video. There's the conclusion that I can make. Such a toot video when I'm looking terrible in it.

Feeling Unhealthy.

2010-04-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

I miss Music Bank. Already 2 weeks KBS stops their schedule. I wanna see Beast performance. I'm bored like usual. Tomorrow got 2 tuitions classes. Sick of it. Currently my rabbits aren't healthy plus my tummy is hurting me right now. Mummy stops giving me allowance because due to the over bill case. I bought Itouchy which leads me to "pokkai" School works too much for me. I started to do homework.Last time I used to skipped some homework. Only one habit I can't really loose it.It was my sleeping habit. Like usual I will sleep at school. Teacher even called me sleeping beauty or sleeping princess too. Laugh Out Loud. I guess I really sleep to much. How to reduce my sleeping habit? Anyone can help me? I wanna sleep less. Lastly, gonna cut down day dreaming and wild imagination too.

Kpop Lover:)

2010-04-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

Dongbang~

Random picture.

That's me obviously.

I Somehow still think that you'd cheat on me.

2010-04-06T23:27:00.001+08:00

Ohh, how about a round of applause
Yeah, standin' ovation
Oooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Ohhh...

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (ohh)

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Ohh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out

How about a round of applause
A standin' ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

I'm finally back to online again.

2010-04-05T21:05:00.002+08:00

It has been around two weeks plus I did not online and my blog was like abandoned. Bought an iPod which was my own money. Sigh. :( Mood of the day was not that great especially due to those Dbsk cases. Sigh. I really do miss them a lot. Seriously is because of them I knew kpop and interested on it. Such a waste when they wanna stop their group activities together. I wonder did they ever think of their fans out there? every cassies support them till the end and always keep the faith. I bet is a really heartbreaking news for all Cassiopeia.

In kl.

2010-03-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

what a busy day today.First time sat train to kl with my friends.That's law, jia, ying, anqi and me.Sat train the What the thing is I SAW THAT PIG RABBIT IN TIME SQUARE!! Arghhhh. I want it so badly! Too bad I didn't bring enough cash.SIGH!!!!!!! Looking forward for Suju's concert.xD

Being too good is not good.

2010-03-14T20:58:00.004+08:00

I really don't understand why human wont feel guilty for being bad? What are their heart made from?Rock,stone? Money isn't everything but is important to us. Everyone needs money. I lend to you and of cause you have to return it when you have it.To certain people they wont return it and they starting to avoid you and even blocked you in every social network. Sometime I don't need them to return my money that urgent,I just find them for fun asking whether are they in a good condition or not. I really don't get it why they wanna avoid me and isn't it bad for behaving like this? I'd helped them when they need someone to be there.I really did as a very good and sincere friend.I really helped and stand for them.I really don't know why they wanna avoid me and even don't return my money? This is not the first time I lend my money to someone.I will never lend money to anyone already.I'm afraid it will be happening again.Disappointment.

Holiday Mood.

2010-03-12T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'm so exhausted.Tired like I don't know how to explain.Choir gonna practice my own and I forgot the key! FML. How am I gonna practice it during holidays? -.- ChongSuChi you're such an ass.Anyway tomorrow gonna listen for that driving law which is like about 6 to 7 hours. Imma freaking going to bored to death. My friends will busy with their stuffs I guess I really will die of boredom.Tuition classes going on.Sighhh~ Looking forward to go kl~Gonna see my babies suju soon.=) excited like ohmygod:)

Nothing special.

2010-03-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

I'm bored like usual.Exam just finished yet I've to continue study because the big's day not yet over. Spm result just out and yeahh congrats to my beloved bitch who got all A's in her SPM examination. She's such a smarty pants:) Envy her like so much. Bunnies doing fine lately and I think they're getting more and more adorable each day.Awwww~Such a cutie.Holy~My back hurt again.Due to my careless plus clumsy.It hurt like ohmy%&^%.Holidays coming and gonna have a short break and and Super Junior's concert is going to held on 20 March.I can't wait. Counting down.Weeeee~~~~

Happy Birthday To Myself :3

2010-03-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

What I say? Hmm. Birthday was so so for me. Don't ask for more and don't hope for more. A lot of unexpected people actually did came and wish me and those that I'm expected they really turned me down. Oh well I cannot say anything because is their wish whether to wish me or get me something. At least now I know who's the real and who's not. Kinda the disappointed but whatever. To those friends that wishes me and also get me stuff I really appreciate it! Seriously a big THANK YOU for them! Besides thankyou i really dont know what to say! And and the bunny is so cute! thanks to Szeyen and AnQi. The unexpected birthday cake from Nick and Michelle:) really made my day:3 to law and yy the forgetful one but thanks anyway. Last but not least I hope the next birthday will be more lovely and warmer than this year:)

Without Words.

2010-02-26T12:45:00.002+08:00

I shouldn’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place
I should have run awayI should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place
Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised
It came without a word
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore,
and that you’re not here anymore
otherwise, it’ll be just the same like before
Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away Without a word,
love leaves a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised
Without a word, tears starts falling down
Without a word, my heart is broken
Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me.

Wishlist.

2010-02-26T12:29:00.002+08:00

I'm officially gonna turn to seventeen in few more days to go. Time passes fast and I've already live in this earth for 16 years plus. Life great and sucks for sometimes. Family and friends gave me bittersweet memories. Like this year we've celebrated a few friends of mine that already seventeen such as joey.t , yy and so on. The next will be me. Actually i really afraid to celebrate birthday.It is because I scare disappointment. Although, it might be won't happen but no one knows what's going to be happen right? All I want is a sincere person around me. A simple handmade stuff will do because I would take it as the most precious things in the world. Money that can't buy it only heart do.A simple yet meaningful wishes will also be great for me. I'll be glad if the person do remember my birthday and yet we've already stop contact like for ages. Sincerity comes from one's heart. I'll would love to feel the sincerity from everyone around me.

What should I do?

2010-02-24T18:40:00.000+08:00

When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling
As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand
I can’t catch you, I can only cry
What should I do?
What should I do?
You’re leaving
What should I do?What should I do?
You’re leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart
All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again
All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you
Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you
I can’t find you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do?
I can only see you
What should I do? What should I do?
I love you only
I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me?
Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on
What should I do? What should I do?
I only have you
What should I do? What should I do?
You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do?
You’re leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart.

I Want It So Badly.

2010-02-22T21:47:00.004+08:00

Isn't it cute?

Freaking adorable~♥

I want that pig bunny/ bunny pig/ pig rabbit/ rabbit pig arghh whatever that thingy called. I want it so badly. Isn't it cute? ^^ I wonder where can I get this toy. Awwww~so cute^^Currently I've just started You're Beautiful. I know is kinda late for me but who cares? Lol. Suk~♥ is so awesomely pretty boy. I'm obsessed with him. Ahahaha. Cant get my eyes off him. I just can't wait for my drama to finish. Its so nice! Thumbs up for it! A.N Jell. ~♥.

Baby, why did you hurt me so much?

2010-02-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

I just cant stand myself for being emo. I'm trying to be happy and go on with my life. Not mentioning sadness, depression and so on. I don't wanna think about it anymore. Seriously it really hurt me so badly. Everything I hold my phone, I really wanted to call you, I did dial your number but at last I don't have the guts to do it, so it ended call some of my friends. Thank you for those who answered my called and cheering me up. I know they care for me and they really did concern about me. I'm so glad that I still have friends that really do appreciate me. Shin Chan comic helps a bit too. Sleeps definitely helps a lot! Anyway, a special friend of mine will be officially 17 in about like 30 minutes? Ahaahaha. HappyBirthday,ChinHung~Hope that you will get what you want. *wink*

Star.

2010-02-19T23:39:00.003+08:00

Went for a movie called Percy Jackson the Lightning theft. The movie was average rating but the main character was so cute. Overall today outing was fine. Bought a star necklace. Its nice and I really like it. Life not really special and it's kinda boring but luckily I still have friends that make my day :)

I'm a Man.

2010-02-18T01:29:00.002+08:00

Having Cny break.Can said quite boring this year. Angpau getting less. Oh well, miss my relatives. All went back except for my dearest cousin,Fishy. This afternoon went out with her dear who is elder than me 9 years. Quite old right? Ahahaha. He's going to kill me if he see this. Anyway went parade and watch that Leehom movie which is I don't remember that shows name. Outing with the guys was okay for me. Guess their life was not complicated as the ladies life. All they did was gaming,gaming and gaming. Lol. Kinda fun actually. Not so tension. Went out at 12 something and back home around 10. Damn long. Had steamboat with them.They're all quite funny and lame. Which make me laugh so hard. Cant wait for another outing on Friday! I'm so gonna watch Percy Jackson! Weee. Looking forward to it.

P.S:hoping to have you back although I'm not

sure will it happen but I still care for you.

Almost Lover.

2010-02-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do.

CNY'S Eve.

2010-02-13T15:36:00.002+08:00

My house is like so crowded. Will be adding more ppl today and tmr sure full house. Feeling so warm with my family members. My china family came to pay a visit too. Is kinda awkward because I've never see them before and there's the guy who talked to me. The china boy.LOL. He's tall and shy. He don't really dare to talk to me. SWT. I'm part of his family wert.Dunno why he is so shy. LOL. Funny. His brother totally different character. Anyway conclusion is , the china family isn't bad as i thought. Thumbs up for them. Cant wait for my beloved cousins to come back. Woohooo. Looking forward.

Status.

2010-02-09T22:46:00.001+08:00

Our relation is undefined.

ILOVEYOU.

2010-02-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

For you, I can never change.If you turn back to me, I'm sure I will love to continue my life with you. I just need you to say a Yes. Its just very simple yet easy. I miss you badly. As i said, the whole day I do not dare to call you not even text you. I was so afraid that you will think that I'm so annoying. I was so suprised to received your call just now. I'm so freaking happy actually. Although I'm not sure what's our relationship now but guess it doesn't matter for now. I just hope that everyday I'll get a chance to talk to you as usual. Telling you how much iloveyou is one of my daily routine. I'll never want it to stop. I still will call you bee like how i used to call you. Just so you know I'm still loving you and I'll stop if you ask me to do so.

Dear Bloggie.

2010-02-08T18:21:00.002+08:00

Bloggie you're my bestest friend.I share my happiness and sadness with you.You never leave me alone. I've always express my feelings to you.I wonder if I don't have you, bloggie I think I would die of keeping my own thought in my brain and at last explode and die of depression.Since 2008 I've started blogging till now. There's happy and sad memories that I've been through. My life changed every single year,month,weeks,day,hours,minutes and also seconds. Until now I've got a few character that played in my life. Can be said as "main character" in my life. 2008 till today there's a few person. They did played well with their role. Some of them were perfect too.Anyway, I'm looking for a new person to play as the main character for my new chapter. Looking forward to it. I wonder who's next. Teeheee. I guess today will be a good good day. I'm so lame posting this.I was too bored and i love blogging.Omg, why is she suddenly appear in my brain?=.= imissher.

Hello.I'm Straight.

2010-02-08T10:52:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking for the whole night. I think i should go on with my life and this time I'm gonna say goodbye to the gay/plu/lesbian world. I'm not going to look backward. I'm looking forward to my future.I'm gonna start searching for guys. Maybe guys is even better? I guess. Just hoping to get someone who's worth for me to share my love with. Being optimistic is not a bad idea. Thanks to my buddy who stayed up so late on the phone with me more than 2 hours plus last night. He's really a great friend of mine and he really makes my day. Thank you.

P.S: I guess i won't find you anymore.

I'm so annoying.I wont bother you anymore.

I'll just keep everything as memories.

Please take care. Goodbye my ex-lover.

I MISS YOU TERRIBLY.

2010-02-07T20:18:00.002+08:00

I miss you.
Could you come back to me?
I'm praying hard and waiting for you to come back.
I'll always welcome you with a big hug and open arms
just to hug you.I do not want to let you go.
I've tried hard not to think about you.
I just can't do it. Baby where're those promises that you make?
I really love you.I don't want a break up. I don't want it to be happen.
Seriously, please don't use that reason to end this.
Not worth it.

You End it With a Fullstop.

2010-02-07T17:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I said I'm falling in love and now I'm falling out love. You brought me up on Friday and you just let me down today.How can you end it with a simple fullstop? I do not want to end this relationship with you.Do you know how much I love you? How much I really care about you? For you I seriously can sacrifices. Anything for you is worth it. You told me you will be with me more than a year. I'll give you freedom whenever you want. You said you don't wanna text I also wont bother you. You need time? I'll give you.I JUST DON'T WANNA END IT LIKE THIS. I REALLY DON'T WANT IT.BULL SHITTING!

P.S:praying hard and waiting for you to come back to me.

I Can Feel The Love Again.

2010-02-06T20:32:00.003+08:00

It has been 2weeks plus since you treated me like cold.Finally I can feel you again.Seriously I've been depressed for almost 3 weeks and now I'm happy again. Get to hugged you yesterday although it was just awhile but I'm really happy with it. My heartbeats was beating fast when you hold my hand. At the moment I really can feel that my heart were smiling inside. The feeling was like falling in love again. Kinda miss that feeling:3 I wanna meet you,Bee.iloveyou.

P.S:Bee,i wanna hug you tight and never let you go.

Numb.

2010-02-03T20:05:00.002+08:00

I guess I'm tired of being sad.
Tired of being heartache.
So now I'll just go with the flow.
Accept the changes that happen.
Too numb to feel anything,
but yet I'm still will continue loving you.

Holding On.

2010-02-02T18:19:00.002+08:00

I know you've change.
You treated me as cold as ice.
You never reply my text.
You never even answer my call.
You're like suddenly disappear from my life.
Are you avoiding me?
There's a lot of question i wanted to ask.
I need a lot of explanation from you.
Are you trying to drag my life?
Can you at least tell me what you want from me?
Can you be more responsible?
Don't disappear in a sudden.
Its freak me out.
I wish i do not care but i cant,
because I'm not as heartless as you.
I do have feelings.
I wish i could settle things with you.
Seriously we need to talk.
I just hope you give me the chance.
Please don't drag me.
It hurts me like hell.

P.S:Bee,i really love you.

New Chapter.

2010-01-24T19:34:00.002+08:00

Let's start a new chapter together?Shall we?
Let's start again the brand new topic together?
Gonna figure some new fresh idea.
New romance and so on.
Let's stop fighting over those past. Shall we?
Just let it be. Everything that happen in the past,
shall we just put it in a box and hide it somewhere in our mind?
Let's not think about it and continue the new pathway
and start a brand new chapter.
I will forget the past and accept it.
I wanna create a fairytale with you.
For the present and also future.
Shall we start it now my dear?

P.S:Will you still wanna continue the journey with me?

原来你什么都不要.

2010-01-23T20:00:00.002+08:00

我知道這樣不好　也知道你的愛只能那麼少
我只有不停的要　要到你想逃
淚濕的枕頭曬乾就好　眼淚在你的心裡只是無理取鬧
以為在你身後　是我一輩子的驕傲　原來你　什麼都不想要
我不要你的呵護　你的玫瑰　只要你好好久久愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好　貪心也好　哪個女人對愛不自私　不奢望
我不要你的承諾　不要你的永遠　只要你真真切切愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好　貪心也好　最怕你把沈默　當做對我的回答
原來你　什麼都不想要

I got nothing else to say.
This song had said it all.
I meant it.Music speaks.
Iloveyou.

Deeply Hurt.

2010-01-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

You had killed me with just a few words from your mouth. It's felt like a knife stab into my heart. Its super hurting. Those words is such a powerful weapon and it really kill my heart painfully. Broken into millions of pieces and there's no one who can recollect it and mend it back. Do you know, you make me fall for you like deeply in love but right now you just being so heartless and you've hurt me. I wonder why you can change so fast? Previous days you were still sweet and fine which is i will never thought that everything that happening now will happen and its the fact which is i still cannot accept. I'm like lying to myself that reminding myself whatever that happen was just a dream. Oh gosh! I'm living in denial. Please tell me that everything that happening now was just a dream or perhaps i call it nightmare? I just wish everything will be back to normal like how it used to be i don't wanna breakup seriously. Its hurt more than i could ever imagine.All i can say its i really love you. I don't mind if i don't fully owns your heart now but I believe that one day for sure i can own it. Love takes time. I hope that you will give me a chance to prove that i can do it.

P.S:Ireallyloveyou,cliffs.tai.Ireallydo.

Two Months.

2010-01-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

Now is already 2months that we stay together as One.Time passes fast.I can say that we did argue a lots of times. Uncountable. I'm not sure whether is a healthy way for our relationship to stay like this. I just don't know. Only 2months and there's a lot of argument so I wonder how will it go on like this. Sometimes I wonder what causes those arguments. Is it my fault? I'd tried to tolerate with you. It just that sometimes it just not work.Sigh.Anyway I do not dare to say anything more because I know I still love you and this is the fact. I guess because we care for each other that's why argues a lot. So i take it as a loving relationship. I'm such an optimistic person.Baby,I want you to stay here with me. Never look back and just looking forward.Continue the journey with me. I gonna hold your hands and we will go through it together. You're my lucky star. I love you,Cliffs.Tai.

P.S:Promise you that I'll take good care of your heart.

SWEET HEART.

2010-01-16T22:41:00.001+08:00

ILOVECLIFFS.TAI.
I'm gonna say this everyday to let her feel how I really felt.
LOVELOVELOVE.MYBABYDEAR.

Untitle.

2010-01-04T19:17:00.002+08:00

I like this picture!

The Beach♥

Cannot believe that i wore this

to town man.

I looked like heading to

some slumber party.

First day of school for 2010.Sleepy during at class.zzZZ.ate a slice of pizza and the other slice gave it to law and she feels like heaven.LOL.Thanks to me.Jy still not yet confirm with me with the tuition stuff.Waited for her since December.== When to chemistry tuition with sy and i nearly fell asleep.Kc leong woke me up.He said no more sleeping this year study first. Haihhh. Sleepy eyes of mine.Pity pity.Had some gossips with my friends today like normal.The first sentence came from their mouth is "ehhh you know or not that blah blah and the blahh blahh got something".I just realise this will came first. LOL.Finally bee and I were settle down. All this while is just me my own stupid fault.Guess i wont repeat the same mistake again.ILY,Bee.♥

Tomorrow school again.Haihh damn lazy.Trials on august. I wonder can i still manage my time and throwing away my laziness?Hope so~Gonna work extra hard for it.Pity me.

P.S:I want my bee♥

Cold and Empty.

2010-01-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

Doing nothing felt quite bored so went and read people's blog.Her post were the same feeling like i do right now.Be with someone that i loved and still feeling cold and empty inside.I can confirm that she changed.Not I thinking to much but seriously i really can confirm with it.She's been acting quite weird lately till i don't understand her at all.I still holding on with her because i know i still love her and its hurting me badly. I tried to get the problem solve but still its continue like this. I really dunno what causing this problem.I'm so damn fucking clueless.I even wonder did she trying to cheat on me? i have no evidence so i cant say it.Arghhhh!!! she told me she still love me.Should i trust? i hope she don't give me false hope. i rather she tells me the truth and leave me if she don't love me anymore because at least i know what her heart wants.Altho this will hurt me like what the fuck.I just want to know the truth.hmmp perhaps its too hurting then should i not knowing it and try to fake a smile?I'm looking forward to meet her but i just don't know went will i have the time and opportunities to see her? Sigh. i just want to work this relationship.I don't want it to be end. i don't wanna lose her. what i can say is i really love her with all my heart.

P.S:I'll keep holding on.

I Aint Perfect.

2010-01-02T02:08:00.002+08:00

All this while i was trying to be a goodie good girlfriend but it seems that I've failed.All I want is her to be happy.Seriously I don't expect more.Is just as simple as that.But why I cant do it better? I've failed to make her happy.A normal thing yet I make it a disappointment.Is really a shameful matter.What the shit.I'm the worst lover.I can't even make my lover happy.A simple task and i make it complicated.Arghhh~I really don't deserved to have a good relationship.I'm a pure loser.I don't deserve anything good and I really know that.Kill me please.Stab me with your knife.Thankyou.

P.S:I feel so shameful and embarrass to face you.

untitle.

2010-01-01T01:40:00.003+08:00

i really don't understand seriously.i don't know what you want.are you getting bored with me?why are you so cool to me?do you know the way you treated me seriously break my heart.I really cant bear the pain.i really love you. you make me fell for you and this is what i get in return?do you seriously even care? do you even bother to know about me now? i really wanna know what had happen. all this while were perfectly fine but now it seems that something had change and i really dunno why.Everything izit my fault? I'm seriously very confuse.do you even love me? sometimes i wonder do you even think of me.

New Year's Eve.

2009-12-31T19:18:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day for 2009.Hmm time passes really fast.Let me refresh my brain and think what had happened through out this year.Form4 like the so called honeymoon year.Tuition classes almost everyday in a week.Slept a lot.Friends changed.Attitude changed.Still loving DBSK as much as last time.Wanted to celebrate New Year's eve with bee but is impossible.Don't even know where she is now.Never text me.aihh~I'm stuck in this hotel.Ahhh~I'm kinda out of topic suddenly.Lol.Anyway this year for me was erm not that special?Hmmm.Although not as good as last time but still fine.This year during my birthday was not that memorable.No this not the right sentence i should say~Every year there was no memorable for my birthday.Seriously non of the year.So next year not looking forward to it.Everyday will be like just go on~life's really bored for me.Seeing my cousin living happily really make me feel so jealous.Wonder why my life that bored.I'm waiting my bee back.As long that I still have her with me I'm already satisfy.Missing her.Gonna say goodbye to 2009.I'm so lame.Tears drop for the good good year this year.

P.S:wannameetmybeesobadly.

Lies.

2009-12-27T23:35:00.001+08:00

Addicting to Big Bang:Lies.
I like the meaning of this songs.

Fcuking Mood.

2009-12-27T14:15:00.003+08:00

I'm having a fucking mood right now.I'm so fucking pissed.I wanna cry now! What the fuck??!!Tears rolling down on my cheek.Having a heartache.What the fucking hell I'm thinking??What's wrong with my fucking brain??!! Why the hell i keep on typing fucking word? Gosh~~~Gonna chill.Let me take a deep breath.Fuh~this make me feel slightly better.My brain keep on thinking of something.Something that i do not want it to be happen.Maybe not too soon.Seriously it keep on popping out in my damn brain.Headache.I feel so empty,lonely,lifeless and why i feel that you are so far away from me? I cant feel you anymore. What happen? Before this everything goes so perfectly fine.Now is like gonna fall off soon.Soon to be.Am I the one who think too much??Am i the one who felt it wrong but is actually nothing?Am I the one who's wrong? I gotta feeling that you're bored with me.I'm a fucking boring person and I admit that.There's so much hidden feelings that I wanna tell you.Is just that is indescribable.I really love you.I really meant it.Please,if there's anything wrong do tell me and I will tolerate it.If you think I don't deserve it, I think I know what should I do.

P.S:i need your warmth and you to be in my arms.

The Christmas Day.

2009-12-25T02:36:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to myself.I don't feel like Christmas day today.Every year it was just the same nothing special.No countdown,no celebration, just nothing. So every year will be the same for me no hopes for anything because I hope for nothing too.Guess Santa was just a fairytale I guess.I wonder how she celebrated her christmas.Hmm.Just browse thru the YouTube then simply search for some songs to listen and so i saw this kid name Sungha Jung. He's awesome guitarist. I wonder how old was his. I think he's really talented. Currently listening to his Moon River. Sounds nice and very relaxing. I miss her. Really very miss. Tonight I let her disappointed at me.Guess she's really angry with me.I feel so guilty so I gonna punish myself.I'm not going to sleep tonight.This is my punishment so that next time I'll remember text her every time and never let her down.Sigh~I'm kinda tired right now but I'm so not going to sleep.Later 6 something going to have morning exercise.Weee watch sunrise.Now already 3 in the morning still have to wait a few more hours to go.AHHHHHHHHHH SUPER MISS HER~♥

P.S:bee,ineedyoubadly.♥

CLIFFS.TAI

2009-12-23T14:06:00.002+08:00

I'M SUPER MISSING YOU.

Lame post for today.

2009-12-22T01:04:00.002+08:00

he's so cute is this picture^^

he's craving for ice-cream.xD

SATIO.

Damn nice~

When jj with my uncle and aunt and their cute kids.

i thought i wanna get something but there have nothing that

attract me.So end up ate ice-cream.After jj went tongsui kai

have supper^^ weee~~fat fat fat.LOL. yummy =D

Missing my bee.Wish her have a goodnight^^

Wondering what she's doing.I miss her goodnight kiss=[

Waiting for her to come back.

P.S:bee,ihopeyoudon'tfeelsufferbeingwithmebecauseilovebeingwithyou.

Empty Feeling.

2009-12-17T20:46:00.003+08:00

Went and browse some people's blog just now. Nothing to do. Aimless. Feeling like this world so boredom. Living like no point. Sometime i asked myself. Why do i have to stay in this world? What's the point that i continue live in the world? Who do I live for? What's the reason for me to stay alive? I really dunno. Clueless. Pointless. Confuse. Skipped dinner tonight. No appetite at all. In a sudden i feel so moody. I feel lonely now. I don't know what to do. I cried out myself to make myself feel better. Trying to comfort myself. Hopes everything will be alright. I'm such a fool. Burdensome.

P.S:thank you for making me smile when I'm deep down;)

HappyOneMonth:)

2009-12-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

HappyOneMonth
My Dearest Bee.
ILY♥

P.S:lovingyoudeeply~

Poor SeungHyun.

2009-12-14T16:59:00.002+08:00

My lover boy get attacked by some stupid fan girl in Singapore.
What a shame.Pity him let some stupid anonymous touch and pull his fringe.
Awww feel so heartache see him like this.
When he looked back and pointed at the girl.
He look so cool!! seriously get a electric shock from him.
Ahahahaha.imisshim:)

P.S:Bee,ily.hope you wont get jealous about this post xD

Mood swing.

2009-12-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

my mood just not doing well.Due to the unhappy song that influence me.Aiks I'm so easy to get influence.Currently listening to Don't Cry My Lover by Dbsk.This songs is a very sad and touching song. Found the translated lyrics so yeahhh i knew the meaning of this song.Okay I have to admit that I've lied that i pretend to be nothing. I just don't wanna see her sad only. Because I'm having a mood swing and it cause by nothing. Seriously nothing at all. I sucks. Brainless moron! I can't handle my life! My life was a mess. Mum's not happy with me. Great! That's just great! She said I'm behaving like a kid. Her GOOD godson gave up on me so what?? like I care?? No, I don't give a damn shit to him! Because he said I'm not mature and act like kid with bad manners so he decided to give up on me and my mum is pretty upset about it. Which is i don't understand why she listen to him that much. HELLO! I'm her real daughter! She believe and do whatever her GOOD godson told her.What the FOOT! I'm way better than him! He's a smoker and I'm not. although now he stop smoking and changing to be *good* so mummy trust him. Dad even hired him to work for my shop. GREAT!! FANTASTIC!! BRILLIANT! Conclusion is I suck! hurray!! cheer for me.

P.S:at least there are still someone who really care for me,my bee~

LOVES.

2009-12-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

lovingyoumybee~

Bee♥

2009-12-07T02:34:00.004+08:00

Bee,
I have waited this moment for so long,
Waited you to appear in my life,
Waited your love to come around,
Waited someone like you to love me.

I found the one to spend my love together,
You are all i need,
You and me together as one.
We gonna spend a lot of happy moment together.
I promise you that we gonna have the sweetest memories ever.
I'll try my best to satisfy and comfort you.
Never gonna hurt you.

I love the way you love me,
I love the way you hugged me,
I love the way you kissed me,
I love the way you say you love me too.

Somebody love you,

Somebody need you,

Somebody dreams about you every single night,

The somebody is me.

P.S:iloveyoucliffs.tai~♥

SKY♥

2009-12-02T18:50:00.002+08:00

Best shot!!

someone sent it to me.

i found it nice so

posted it.

sunset

Sun rise.

Posted some of my masterpiece pictures.

I love the sky. Loves peace^^

I'm sure my bee loves sky too.

LOVESLOVESLOVESMYBEE♥

P.S:hope can see sunset with you my bee♥

I'm Yours.

2009-11-27T02:23:00.003+08:00

Now is 2.24am and I'm not asleep yet. Bee feeling unhappy now. I know its my fault. I know you worry everything about me.Sometimes i wonder will you be tired? Will you feel suffer together with me? I really dunno.But for me i never feel tired. I never feel suffer together with you. Sometimes I'm really happy when you told me you're jealous and also worry about me.This prove that you really care and love me. Bee, the way you tell me how much you love me is really warm and sweet. Although i dunno how deep is your love? I don't mind if you say you don't love me that deep because we're still new for each other and I believe that our love and feelings for each other will grow.Time is all we need now to prove to each other. I might not same as your others ex but whatever it is I will tolerate with you. I will. I will hold you tight. As for now, I belong to you.No worries bee,I'm yours.

P.S:WEBELONGTOGETHER:)

Bee.

2009-11-22T22:07:00.002+08:00

My second meeting but first time dating with you.
You make me fallen for you.
I'm seriously starting to love you.
I really love the way you hug me so tight.
It feel warm although you're cold.
But no worries because
I'll gave you warm.
Bee,promise me that you will give me a fair love & care.
Please take good care of my heart.

P.S:I'llgiveyoumyheart.

Damn.

2009-11-19T05:26:00.002+08:00

Hurray,I suck.
I just hope all the problems will soon come to an end.
I need solution.
Every little things that happened was my fault.
I apologize for being bad lately.
I've changed.
Do not dare to look at the mirror.

I'm scary.

P.S:INEEDYOUBADLY.

IMISSYOU♥

2009-11-17T17:12:00.001+08:00

BEE.
IMISSYOU♥

17 of November.

2009-11-17T16:45:00.002+08:00

Holidays mood already started even though holidays were not started.LOL.Lazy me.Went out with my friends almost every week.Money going to flow like water. I wanna watch 2012 and also poker king. Ish thanks to my friends I can't watch it. Haih. Mum told me her godson cried just now because he thoughts that I avoided him. Aiks. Why on earth he cried for me??? Swt case.Mum kept on annoying me this few days is making me feel annoyed by her. Anyway next Monday going for dentist again going to have another tooth pull out. Haih scare of injection.T___T

P.S:imissyoumybee♥

untitle.

2009-11-12T23:18:00.002+08:00

I'm being evil again.I'm going to hurt a few people again.I always try not to be a heartbreaker but in the end I have to.I force to do so.I'm sorry.In this situation, will i get karma? I hope not because I don't mean to do it.Sigh.

P.s:Will I get what i want?

7th of November.

2009-11-08T11:42:00.004+08:00

My dad's coat.

sleepy eyes.

My little brother.

the vip of the day.

sy the singer.

anqi the speaker.

isn't she look cute here?

Law.

she look so small here.

My annoying bro.

This Is It.

2009-11-02T14:16:00.002+08:00

I was browsing thru the pictures folder then i saw this

WangZi (prince) from bangbangtang picture posing.

Then I remember i got a picture of Law too.

So I just combine it.LOLs.

Law should pose properly.

Then my masterpiece will be perfect.

FT Island New Pictures:D

2009-11-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

♥ Baby Ft Island.

Ft Island♥

Awwww~~~aren't they cute??

Their newest pictures.

I can't wait for their new updates^^

SongSeungHyun♥ ♥ ♥

TVXQ Endless Love.

2009-11-01T14:17:00.002+08:00

Just finished TVXQ Documentary.Its so touching.I don't know how to describe.Thumbs up for the boys!They worked so hard to make it and they succeed!!I'm so proud of them!How could I imagine if one day no more Dbsk??!! I cannot imagine it because I'll pray for it and DO NOT want it to be happen!!Although there's a lot of groups out there that I kinda interested in but none of them can ever replace TVXQ! Seriously! NON of them can.I respect TVXQ a lot and I really love them.Always Keep The Faith~

Raining Season.

2009-10-30T20:27:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure which girl group this belongs to

but the pink girl really look like yingying.LOLS.

Amber look so cute and

she's the special one

who wore man outfit.

Nickhun there's no any other man

will eat watermelon in a hot way.

this gay couple look so happy^^

Latest Songs.

2009-10-30T12:05:00.003+08:00

BigBang -Let Me Hear Your Voice.

Again& Again-Beast.

This is like so nice man.

Loving bigbang now.This song sound relaxing.

The Beast is so incredibly cute performing Again & again.

Effing cute^^

Exam Over!

2009-10-28T14:37:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO.
I'm free from the books now.

MOODY.

2009-10-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

I felt so badly now.Which is i don't know why? I feel like something is bothering me. Mum is having bad day too due to the vacation had been cancel.I know my mum wanna go with my dad so badly and i couldn't help.Suddenly i feel that I'm really useless.I'm the eldest child of this family and I did nothing for this family. Grandma not feeling well and nobody going to cook for us.Mum don't even know how to turn on the gas.Sigh~I just hope that my mum can be more mature and think for the family but not her own.I know she really wanna go so badly but if they really go for it who's gonna take care of my grandma?Who's going to buy food for us? I can't even drive. I really don't know how to help. I don't hope to see my mum sad and i don't hope to see my family members suffering for hunger. Nobody going to cook. How I wish my grandma will be feeling better and normal like last time or maybe my mum be more mature and think about it.
I already feel very frustrated. Can someone please tell me that everything that happens now was a dream?? *pinch me please*sickening.

p.s:I need a hug so badly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOE CHOE.

2009-10-22T19:52:00.004+08:00

MICHELLE CHOE

(i know you will hate me for thisXD)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SMALL LITTLE

CHOE CHOE.

i guess I'm the one who used to call you

this right??am i right??

I'm special.

AHAHAHAHA.

so...we are friends

since 13 and now you're

already 16 time flies so fast.

i still remember last time

you were long hair and

wearing a nerdy spec. (o.o)

ahahhaa so cute la.

you're actually a good listener.

when I'm sad you will

try to cheer me up.

remember those day we were in kl?

i am like so over protective?

ahahaha. I'm so annoying right?

just dunno why i will

protect you like my own sister.

maybe you're kinda small size i guess?

sometime i actually cant really

stand you.is like i don't know how to say

but whatever izit i will try to

tolerate.i will its because i do not like

argument.i love peace.

smile always little girl.

don't make your life so complicated!

if you don't wish to get hurt

so don't drag and hurt other's feelings too.

anyway happy birthday to you!

smile always because i think

is sweets^^

may all your wishes come true:)

with loves,

suchi♥